Bugchaser's Joy (1999)

Sammy told me that the fuck that was going to kill him was the best fuck he'd ever had and the best orgasm he'd ever had once he got past the fear.

That was the kicker; doing it despite the knot of fear in your belly.

Sammy said he was so frightened when he spread his thighs wide and felt a Giver's cock slide into him that he didn't think he could cum because of the ice in his belly. But once he felt his Giver cumming inside him he felt a burst of ecstasy that set him free. Sammy's been ceaselessly horny ever since because he no longer lives in fear.

I'm a femboy like Sammy and it seems the epidemic is all around us; people getting terminally ill; people dying.

Having random sex with a stranger is like playing Russian Roulette these days. Who's infected? Who isn't? How can I be careful always? It makes every fresh encounter a nerve-racking experience, tainted by fear that devours pleasure.

When I first got started in the scene I fucked like a rabbit but since the bug infested our community I am scared all the time.

I never liked feeling a cock thrusting inside me wrapped in a condom. It feels artificial and limiting, but being barebacked and feeling that gush inside your belly as your Top cums is the best feeling in the world. Feeling him leave part of himself behind is such an intimate thing.

I miss that freedom so much.

Sammy said it was inevitable, so why not surrender?

Sammy was a bugchaser and caught his bug and now I see the freedom of catching mine.

In bed at night all alone I fantasize about catching the bug. I get so excited as I imagine that moment. My bumhole gets loose and open and I want it so bad. And when I cum imagining my Top is fucking me and filling the hidden creases in my belly with his hot load it sets off sweet cramping orgasms.

My friend Sal (who goes by Sally when he's dressed) and I got an invite to an all night Bareback party thrown by Tops who are Givers. The invite was plain; bugchasers only. It was thrilling to think about, but scary as hell.

While fucking each other one night and pretending we were taking the Gift was so deeply erotic we decided to go. We prepared ourselves for the catch; enemas and showers and make-up and pretty clothes.

Every bottom who showed up at the large house was chasing the Gift, and the Tops knew we all wanted it. Sally and I spent the first while just warming up; sucking cock and helping other bugchasers take it. Some wanted to be held down, making it more exciting as they were fucked hard by Givers. Others wanted to throat cock while they were fucked so they felt impaled and overwhelmed.

Some of the bottoms sobbed after they took their first hot load, but when they calmed they let more Givers fuck them silly.

I watched Sally get so horny he went off with another femboy who was also a Giver. That was so Sally; wanting to be done fem on fem. As Sally got fucked, a puddle of cum dribbled from the other femboy's loose bum onto the blanket they chose. He'd been charging himself up with more of the Gift before giving it to Sally.

Sally was quiet being fucked by this moaning Fem Top as boys all over the house were taking it and I know the exact instant Sally felt his Top cumming inside him. It hit him hard that he was taking the Gift, and was so overwhelmed that he sicked-up from the fear convulsing his belly.

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"I'm sorry." Sally sobbed after, "I'm so sorry. It hit me hard."

"It's okay." said his fem top, "I like that you felt it that deep."

Sally had his first Gift and went off to fuck other Givers, so despite the knot of fear in my own belly I wandered to find my own, stopping at a large tub of Crisco and pushing a wad into my bumhole, loving the slickness between my cheeks.

Like Sally, I usually seek other femboys to fuck, but now I want to feel small and dominated. I wanted Tops who were strong and large but not cruel and I found four of them undressing in the large foyer of the house, all of them sporting long fat cocks. Seeing them flaccid and imagining them hard and inside me made my knees weak.

They noticed me in the doorway.

"Chaser?" one asked.

"Yeah. Givers?"

"You know it baby." he said, "You want it to be me?"

"You first, then all of you if you want."

"Want to make sure, huh?"

"I want to be filled up." I said despite my nervousness.

"What's your name?"

"Tyler." I say as they surround me, their hands encircling my arms and legs, lifting and carrying me like a virgin floating upward to the temple for my sacrifice. And I feel like a virgin, my stomach edgy like Sally's had been, my bum hungry for their cocks, my small body trembling in their strong gentle hands. I was scared to death, but I didn't want to be left behind; left living in fear all the time while every other boy here were set free.

They carry me upstairs to a bedroom and lay me down on crimson sheets. Hands play with me, getting me ready for the biggest event in my life. Hands stroke my cock until it's hard and twitching; stroke my sac until it puckers, pulling my testicles up into their pockets either side of my root; twirl my nipples until they tingle electric. Then the first top teases my slick bumhole with a finger and it warms and begins to open.

I feel like a virgin once more and my body remembers losing that virginity on the stack of mats in the high school gym storage room. But then I was face down on the mats and the boy who took me thrust in hard and deep and pounded me until he gushed into my belly and my cock jerked and squirted onto the mat, smearing my lower belly. I learned who I really was during those fumbling moments.

Being fucked back then was only desperate pleasure, but now it's going to be powerful and deadly.

"Fuck me with your fingers. Fuck me." I whisper, looking up into my Top's green eyes as one finger slides into me, "Fuck me with your fingers." and he smiles. It's a kind smile and I know he's doing this for me and loving me for it.

A second finger slides into me. He's getting me ready for their four thick cocks and—oh god—their loads of hot cum.

"Open for you." I gasp, "Open for you."

Then a third finger stretches me and I feel my anus clench down on them as my rectum fills with his fingers and I cry out.

This is real.

I'm surrounded by masculine Givers and it's really happening.

"Oh god, you don't know how bad I want you in me." I tell them, lifting my knees and opening wide for all of them, beginning to pant, "All of it."

I feel his fingers slurp out of my rectum replaced by the head of his cock pressing against the ring of my bumhole. His cock is already slick with precum, leaking his Gift before it's even inside me.

"... okay ..." I gasp, then squirm as I feel him sliding, the head of his cock stretching me open.

"... going inside me ... yeah ... oh yeah ..." I gasp as I feel my bumhole swallow the head of his cock as the shaft follows.

"... want you deep ... press up into me ... press up into me ..." and his cock starts to fill me as the excitement builds in my belly.

"Yeah ... yeah ..." I beg as I feel half his length slide inside, making my prostate throb, "... oh god ..."

He starts fucking me, deliberately sliding deep and shallow, still teasing me, and I want more. Oh god, I want more.

"Ahhhh! Deep! Push in, push in." and I feel him press hard against my crotch, his length filling my rectum, threatening to penetrate my sigmoid colon as he starts moving.

"Fuck me hard." "Fuck me hard." I cry out desperately, curling my hips against his thrusting. It feels glorious and I know this is just the first; four more Givers are going to leave hot loads of their Gift in my belly.

"... please ... take you all the way inside me like that ..." I moan and simper, wanting to be filled with their cum; wanting my belly bloated with their Gifts like Sammy; like Sally who is somewhere in the house being gang banged and loving every minute of it.

"... slam me ... slam me ... slam me ..." I cry out as this first Top fucks me hard, each impact thundering up my core so I feel it in the pit of my stomach and my gullet.

"... I want you to cum ... I want you to cum ... I want you to do that for me ..." I beg, my own cock twitching as it slaps against my lower belly.

"... oh my god ... hitting all my good spots ..." my prostate pulsing with each beat of my heart as his thrusting thick cock rides it.

"... oh cum ... don't stop, don't stop, don't stop ..." I'm desperate now, lost in this savage fuck, impaled on him, feeling the head of his cock swelling as he starts to cum.

"... oh jeez, you're going to kill me ..." I gasp, the reality of this hitting me in my core, shocking me; knowing as soon as he cums I will begin the journey toward death.

My death.

Now he is cumming hard, spurting inside me, filling me, and despite my building dread I want to join him, my own cock jerking in little spasms.

"... oh ... oh ..." I whimper as my body weakens and the fear floods through me again.

Oh god, what am I doing.

" ... no ... no ..." I feel the rush of terror from bumhole to throat, my bowels squirming as though trying to run away the Gift's deadly promise. But it's too late; my belly is swallowing his load that pulses inside me and as I manage to release the fear it turns to ecstasy; a bliss that is made sweeter by the gushing Gift slithering in my bowels, being absorbed by my most tender flesh, as though I can feel the bug infecting me and I shed all the anxiety and worry.

I'm free now.

I can fuck without fear.

"... oh ... feels so good ..." I moan as he cums and cums and cums inside my belly and my cock feels like it's going to explode, my tight orgasm cramping my root like a knot and trapping my own cum inside me, the pressure building fast.

"Jesus Christ!" I cry out; the spasm of my root explodes and sprays my own cum all over my sweat-slick belly as he rips his cock out of me.

My bowels shudder, leaving me hollow and oh so needy, my prostate throbbing for more. I keep my knees high and open and the next Top climbs onto the bed and nests in the cradle of my thighs. I need him inside me. I need him to fuck me raw. I need to be fucked by Givers all through the night.

"... okay ... okay ... okay ..." I gasp as the second Top slides his long thick slick cock inside my slick bumhole, his hardness sliding deep to deliver another Gift in my hungry belly.

And I want it. I want it so bad.

I've crossed over from the bleak darkness of fear into the brilliant light of surrender and can live the rest of my life in pure sexual joy.

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