Seppuku

my name is Alexis and i plan to die tonight. I don't have any reason for why this will happen, its not because i was cheated on by a boyfriend, or even a girlfriend for that matter, although i have often fucked my self silly to erotic fantasies of a certain pop star (i wont say who).

before I continue let me tell you about myself, I'm 19 years of age, my measurements are 36-24-34 i weigh 136 pounds and stand at 5' 2" tall in my bare feet. i'm really good looking what with my bright green eyes, narrow nose and my high cheeks, oval face framed by waist length blonde curls.

my life up till has been quite good, i don't lack for anything in regards to material things. I was given a red Mercedes-AMG GLE 53 for my sweet sixteen. And I always have the latest tec, and as for clothes I always wear the latest high end fashions. i'm still in high school. my life there is great and on track to graduate top of my class.

but enough of that as it has nothing to do with why I'm dying tonight. i know this will happen because i'm killing myself. I could use pills but i've decided that would to cliche. no the method I plan to use is the ancient Japanese rite of Seppuku. I will gut myself along my bikini line, pull out my guts and the drive the blade through my left breast until it pierces my heart. i know where it will happen and when, I just haven't decided what i'm going to wear.

It's 9 o'clock, I'm in my ensuite bathroom completely naked and staring at my reflection in the full length mirror next to the large jacuzzi. And I must admit I look hot , my face is made up and the makeup is on point, my hair rich, the curls are full boded the tip brushing my waist just above my full hips, my pubic hair has been trimmed and my breasts are full and round, my nipples with the rings are a rich dark brown. I reach down cup my pussy with my left hand while I run my right along my bikini line while picturing the path of the knife, the very image causing me to orgasm suddenly i shake my head to clear it. I need a clear head to finish getting ready. dropping my hands I turn walk to the shower. turn it on, I reach in with my right hand, place it under the flow to test the heat, when i decide the temperature is just right I step in.

the water cascades over my hair plastering it to my scalp and flowing down my body take a moment to get myself off I spread the folds of my pussy with the fingers of my left hand, and then proceed to use the for and third finger of my right hand to stroke my g-spot until orgasm, the waves of pleasure build slowly at first but quickly grow I intensity the more i stoke it and then just as i drive them into my pussy the orgasm burst through me and I almost see stars. I then wash myself clean shampoo and condition my hair, rinse it and step out I turn off the shower grab a large bath towel rap it around by body and tuck the end between my breasts. I leave the bathroom and head into my large bedroom.

now I just need to choose my outfit for the night ahead. I cross to my walk in closet open the double doors and enter. I have racks of dresses both formal and casual along with shirts, skirts, slacks and jeans. I have draws and draws of the sexiest Lingerie in all the colors of the rainbow. i decide on black it's not like i'll be wearing it for anyone I then grap a blue silk blouse, skinny jeans and my black leather jacket and exit. I cross to my queen size bed and toss my clothes on the pink floral quilt I shed the towel use it to dry off quickly dress. after i finish I cross to my dressing table and fix my makeup and brush my hair. I check out my reflection once satisfied with what I see I grab pair of sneakers and head downstairs to the hall grab my keys and exit my front doors.

My car sits in the drive and for the moment I just stare. I've loved this car since the day a got it. I've made out in it more times then I can remember, I even lost my V card on the back seat with Katherine my vice captain (cheer squad) we used a double ended dildo so it still counts. I cross to it open the drivers side door an slip behind the streering wheel. I take a second to settle my nerves before iI start the engine. once I calm I start the engine put it in drive and set of.

the place I've chosen to die in is our hunting lodge up in the mountains, it's perfect, hidden and peaceful it only takes an hour and i'm there. I pull to a stop next to the lodge's rap around porch kill the engine and get out i shut the door I don't bother locking it. I'll be dead before the sun even comes up. I walk behind the car open the trunk and take out the small bag slam the lid and enter the lodge. I turn on the lights and enter the living room. I stop drop the bag on the couch and crossing to the wet bar pour myself a drink. I look at my watch. I still have an hour so I drop into one of the high backed wing chairs and wait.

It's midnight, time to get started. First thing I do is stip naked toss my clothes onto the couch and open the small bag. from Inside I retrieve a scarlett kimono, and a long bladed silver hunting knife this is what I'll be wearing when I end this empty life. and this knife is what will end me.

i pull on the kimono and taking the knife I step out onto the outside deck. i've already placed a yoga mat on the floor along with a blue taper and a single white orchid. for a moment I stare up at the moon it's full and round and so close I could almost loose myself in its beauty but I have to finish this