Exposed! Humiliated! And, missing it!

I am probably one of the only people on here that doesn't have social media pages. I don't have Facebook, Instagram..... Nothing! You may find photos of me on my family's and friend's pages. But, until recently, I had become non-existent as far as social media sites are concerned. This site and a few others that I recently signed up for are all there are. But, there is a reason behind my departure some years back.

Somewhere between school and home I lost my phone. It had to be in one of four places, or somewhere between. School, the bus, work and home! That was the only places I had been before I noticed it was missing. It may not sound that bad to you. But, I had this naughty little habit that I was kinda obsessed with that has gotten me in trouble a couple of times. This was definitely the worst of those!

I used to get aroused and excited having dirty things in my phone. Photos! Videos! I diary of my naughty experiences and thoughts! Some of it so bad it would destroy what little dignity I may have had. But, having it all in there was kinda a cheap thrill. It got me excited every time someone would borrow my phone. Or, just having it sitting out around people knowing that there was some much dirty incriminating material within their reach and they didn't have a clue. Things involving beastiality and even incest!! Things that would have people judging and even hating me. It was stupid and made for several embarrassing and humiliating moments.  I never planned on it actually turning up in someone else's hands at the time.

It was a couple of days before I was able to get a new phone. I kept my same number! So, I don't know if it was someone who knew me, or a stranger that was able to get my number and information off of my old phone.  Whomever it was started sending me messages from a number I didn't know. At first it was screen shots of embarrassing photos, videos and entries in my diary app. I kept messaging them asking who they were and begging for my phone back. I was scared, humiliating and sadly, turned in by it. At first they just ignored me and kept sending screenshots. Some containing shots of my contact info for friends and family. Then they started with shots of my media accounts. That's when I discovered I had been locked out of them. Whomever it was, changed my passwords and email connected to them.

Right after that the replies started. Threats telling me that if I told anyone, or reported them to anyone that they would release all of the humiliating material to everyone I knew. That included having my Facebook and Instagram shut down. It was horrifying to say the least. And then, the requests started. At first it was mostly nude photos and videos of me masturbating and doing humiliating things. Then it got creepy! Request like me standing in front of my window at night naked and playing with myself! Followed by just plan out humiliating things that left me in very bad situations. From flashing and propositioning strangers. To being left stranded naked and exposed in inappropriate places. For ing me to use video chat as proof. I felt like they were watching me at all times. They always seemed to know where I was and what I was doing.

One of the first frightening moments was at a park close to town. Somehow they knew I was there and told me to go into the bathroom and remove my clothes and toss them out the door. Whomever it was, stole them and left me stuck in the bathroom for hours. I had to wait until dark and face an almost 20 minute walk home. Hiding in ditches and trees to keep from being seen. It wasn't the last time they pulled that on me either.

They also made me show them different outfits and choose what I was to wear. It was always skimpy or worse. I once spent the day wearing only a shirt that barely covered my ass and had to go to school that way. I wasn't allowed any bra or panties the whole time. And, I had to put things in me and keep them there. Never knowing when they would call to check.

Then the encounters started! Those were really scary! The first time they had told me to sneak out one night and go to this old cemetery down the road. I wasn't allowed to wear anything and had to follow all their instructions or they threatened to send photos of me being sexual with my sisters boyfriend to her. I got there and they had left a Walmart bag by a tree and told me to video call them once I found it. All I ever saw was a black screen and heard some type of computer generated sounding voice. It was like something out of a horror movie. I half expect to be murdered and left in an open grave or something. Obviously, that wasn't the case or I wouldn't be sharing this with you today.

I was instructed to sit the phone on the ground where they could watch me. In the bag was a pair of cuffs and these swimming goggles that had been blacked out somehow. I was to put the goggles in, cuff my hands behind my back and lay face down on the ground and wait. If being naked, bound and blind in a cemetery at night wasn't scary enough. Hearing footsteps coming towards was. My heart was racing! It was pounding when I felt two people lifting me up by my arms. Only one of them spoke and he used this deep fake horror movie serial killer voice. Told me to shut up, open my mouth and suck and swallow. Then I felt him out his cock to my lips. So, I was freaked the fuck.out and did as I was told. Repeatedly! For hours! There had to be at least three people there from the size and the taste.

When it was over the walked away and left me sitting there bound and on my knees. I begged them to let me free. The one guy told me to shut up and listen for my phone and they walked away! A few minutes later my phone rang and I was able to find it! I hung up on them twice before I actually hit the right button to answer it. Then I heard the computer course telling mee that the keys to the cuffs were sitting at the bottom of the tree.  And, I was to hang on to the cuffs and goggles. That I would be needing them again.

There were several meetings like that. I would meet them in the cemetery or park and with the cuffs and goggles on and the key in some place that I couldn't reach. It wasn't always just oral after that. And, I there seemed to be more and more of them. This went on for months! Most the time it was just a few hours. And occasionally,I would end up at this old barn for a weekend bound and being used and tormented by them. I was never allowed to see them and only heard the one guy talk in that fake deep voice. Between the encounters I would be forced to do sexual and humiliating things. I had started to.emjoy.the encounters after the first few and knowing I was safe. The mystery made it scary, but hot! It was beyond exciting. Even some of the humiliating things that I was forced to do between them was fun. Many of them were just scary and embarrassing. By the end, I actually preferred the meetings.

It all ended suddenly! One day the calls just stopped and I don't know why. That's when the real humiliation started. Their finally act of terror or revenge. I'm not sure which! The following weeks after they disappeared, weird things started happening. Guys around school and work started groping me and talking nasty to me. Like they knew it was ok and I gave them permission. Adults I knew started looking at me funny. Some started avoiding me! Others seem to like me more! There was a lot of laughter and teasing! I started getting these sexual messages from lots of people that confused me. Some of them being family. Sn uncle and a couple of cousins. Then the messages from family and friends started. Many asked me what I was thinking and what was wrong with me.

Then, a friend brings up my Facebook post. Telling me that I better get that stuff off of there before I got in trouble and blocked. I asked her to show me and freaked out! Since I hadn't heard from whomever it was that was using me, I decided to take a chance and try and get access to my accounts again. I managed to reset my passwords and emails. What I saw was shocking and extremely humiliating! It had looked like they had posted everything in my phone on them. Photos! Videos! Screen shots of embarrassing diary entries! I started deleting as fast as I could. Then I noticed hundreds of messages! They had been send the worse ones out to my friends and family in both sites. Not to mention to other people I rarely talked to, or just had on there for school and work. I couldn't get through them all before I was so ashamed and humiliated that I just deleted both profiles all together! It was years before I lived all of that down. I still haven't, honestly! Some people don't forget!

What I can't understand are the emotions I started feeling afterwards. Besides being completely humiliated from how it ended. I was relieved it was over. At first! After a couple of weeks I began to miss it. Not the embarrassment of being completely humiliated of Facebook and Instagram. But, I missed the mystery and feeling helpless and used. The daily excitement! And ok, maybe the humiliation just a little. I like being helpless and knowing I could be exposed to people I knew at any minute. Kinda of the same reason I kept so much dirty stuff on my phone. I even started doing it again. Filling my phone with naughty photos and videos. And then, I started doing things I knew I shouldn't to help relive some of the emotions that excited and kept me aroused.

I haven't done it in a while now. But, I have three phones that could be floating around out there somewhere full of dirty videos and photos. And, it was done purposely! Each time I got a new phone, I would naked sure to remove any contacts and personal information from them. I would fill them up with dirty content and then leave them out somewhere in public to be found. I have no idea where any of them ended up! I left one in a park! One in a gas station! And the other at a Walmart. That wasn't all I did! I would also print up dirty headless photos and leave them places. Shoving them in random lockers! Leaving them at work and around other places I went. Showing pretty much everything but my face and me doing dirty things. I did the same thing with videos and a couple of old flash drives too. Always wondering when and where they may show up kept me extremely hot and excited. Even now I wonder where they are and if any of them made it public. On media and other sites! Even now it excites me even though I know it could lead to total humiliation and embarrassment. I even made a promise to myself. That, if they ever did! I couldn't take them down or report them no matter what. Scary and stupid! But, it gets me hit knowing the possibility is out there. And maybe! Just maybe! I might find myself in the same situation that got me in so much trouble before. Though, these days it won't be made as easy as back then. Now, it's a game of chance, luck and fate! Cat and mouse, so to speak! Mostly because I'm older and have responsibilities. But, if it were to happen..... Well?! If anything! The possibility of others than may know me seeing me exposed still keeps me hot and wet every time I post something I shouldn't. God knows, I don't know why! But the chance of shame and humiliation gets me a little horny and keeps my days a little more exciting.

It's been a while since I've done that! My last phone was a couple of years back. I have avoided any social media and fetish sites until recently. Mostly, because I was trying to be a better person and get my life straight. Then a few months back I found myself lonely and needing some excitement in my life. That's how I found my way here. I signed up for a site called FetLife. But, I got booted off pretty quick for beastly things. I signed up for another called, CollarSpace. But, it's been weeks and they haven't cleared my profile. I tried another called Kinkme. But, it hasn't gone anywhere! Then there is another called, Submit! It took a couple of days to be accepted and seemed new and promising. Even put a booty tease shot on it. But, it didn't go anywhere either. Although, I'm thinking about posting some more exposing photos in it for that reason. The chance of it getting up and running one day and having them in there is kinda exciting. I also signed up for Literotica. But, they take so long to clear anything. Then, I found this place! Which I love! It is definitely more open about things most sites won't allow. Many of them are things I've wanted to share and talk about freely. Only, I can't figure out how to add photos. Which is the down side! It's a cheap thrill, but might be nice knowing they are up for you all to see. I'm not talking anything major! Just a booby or booty shot or two. But, so far! This is the site I like best with or without photos. If I could only figure out how to add personal pics to my stories! It may be a good thing I can't!

Anyway! I'm happy to be a part of this site! Thank you to everyone who reads my writings. It's nice to finally find a place open to things I'm normally ashamed of and can't talk about. Hugs and kisses to you all!