Becoming the real me

The following morning, Thomas woke feeling refreshed and determined that he would carve out a new life for himself. He would explore the avenues he had always wanted to explore but had never done while he was married. A few searches revealed some gay hook-up sites, and he joined, deciding to jump in at the deep end. 

Over the next month, Thomas cammed with other men while using a dildo in his ass. He had been an anal virgin when he started, but after a few weeks of bouncing up and down with words of encouragement echoing from the computer, he was pretty sure he could take a real cock. When he got a contact from a local top offering a meeting, Thomas went with enthusiasm tinged with apprehension.  

After he had been fucked twice by the top, he wandered home in a daze, his ass throbbing as it did after a good dildo session.  It was good, but he felt there was something missing; however, he was determined not to give up on the experiment; so he carried on.  

In his sex life with his wife, there had never been any hint towards anything remotely kinky. Now, with other men, previously unknown doors were being opened, as he came to realise that he enjoyed being a bottom and being fucked. It wasn’t that he felt he was gay, but instead the role reversal of being the receiver rather than the giver allowed him to feel that he wasn’t replacing his wife; maybe he was becoming her. One of things that really turned him on was when the top would call him names while fucking him. 

He advertised that he was available as a bottom slut for sex parties, and although he got a few offers, nothing came to fruition. Saunas and bathhouses seemed to offer promise, but a few visits got him nothing more than a few hand jobs and a couple of bellyfuls of seed.  

He trawled the dark corners of the internet and one day found a site specialising in dog porn. The majority was women being fucked by dogs of varying sizes but there was also a section devoted to men being used by dogs. Thomas was enthralled and spent hours watching the clips as he masturbated furiously. 

There was a contact section on the site and Thomas placed an advert stating he was a bottom who wanted to explore more. He didn't get many responses but one day, he was contacted by a man calling himself Jeffery requesting that they meet. It wasn’t really a request, more of an assumption that he would comply with the date, time and place that was named. There was something about the man’s profile and picture that exuded confidence and Thomas felt he would be safe with him. 

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