The Village of Higher Beings (First Iteration)

Hi friends. My name is Kantoboi and I'm here to tell you my story. Trigger warning for abuse and trauma, I went through a lot of it. I hope those of you that read can learn something, especially those who are breeders in the village. I'm the God of Fear and Anxiety, though just call me Kantoboi. I am a semi-quadrapedic otter with blue and silver fur, and I identify with any/all pronouns and am a male though assigned female at birth. I can stand on my hind legs and sit too, though to move motorically, I must use all four paws of mine. I also weigh 105 LBS/47.6 kilos. I tend to overshare and get distracted so I apologise if I do that. Please enjoy my story. The first feeling I can remember is pain. I remember a black belt used on me to try and train me into being a servant for those older than me. I never listened so I became dull to the pain. I believe I was 3 or 4 when I first was hit. They never learned that I didn't understand and simply kept hurting me. To keep me a secret, no one was allowed inside with a device and they even planned my birth and had me in the bathtub. I still flinch and almost run whenever a paw is raised near me. I grew fond of the few books I got when I was young. My favourite was "Word of Mouse" which was written by James Patterson. It's the only book I got for years so I have had the story in my head for years. I remember seeing the sky for the first time. It was dark but I saw sparkles. I tried to count them before they pulled me back in and I think I counted seventeen. Somewhere around that, I believe. I remember my first breeding session too. I was sold for an hour for a measly 5 dollars. The men came into my room and took my body. Being born with a vagina, I was a commonly bought product. I was cheap and used. My life was nothing but pain and rape. After about a year, I got used to the rape too. I never had the strength to stop it, so I never tried to. My body became dull to it just as it did the beatings, why would I stop something I didn't feel? Every night I remember crying and then getting beaten to "be given a reason for crying." The birthers of mine never treated me like one of them, handing me only scraps of food and a single cup of water a day. I didn't want to die, I simply wanted to see the sky again, so I kept eating and drinking the water. My life became an endless cycle for about ten years until a raid happened. Apparently, an FBI insider had been watching us for a while, documenting my pain, and stepped in only as they were about to sell me. I wasn't even aware of my selling since I stopped listening to everything people said around me. They busted in the doors and pulled off a man that was on me. He was arrested along with everyone else inside, and I was brought to a police station. I watched the sky go by, fascinated at its new yellow hue. What was this? Is this the sun? My education was limited to only books, not common sense or knowledge. As I was called up to give my story for documentation, time slowed around me as I stood up. "So much pain for little old Kantoboi. If only I had noticed your pain earlier, I could've helped before. I wish now that your life could be rewritten to perfection, only happiness and love, though time does not work like that. Stay strong lovey, you'll grow into a strong young boy. I believe in you," Said a voice behind me. I turned around, though they were gone. Time had resumed and I questioned what was real. I gave my story to the officer and I was taken to a centre for children adoptions. I was about 14, with barely anything to wear, one book, and the saddest face in the world. My life did get better though! I was adopted by these liberal folks that lived alone in this cute little cabin in the woods. We went fishing and slept in our own beds. Every night I'd sit at my bid and pray to whoever it was that had spoken to me. My parents shook it off as an overactive imagination but I knew the truth. After a few years, I turned 18. I stayed with them, though I started to go exploring the area. I came across this land with what looked like a million caves and so I started walking in them. I explored about 23 but when I entered my 24th one I suddenly was falling. I was in a void of complete darkness and coldness. It reminded me of my traumatic past. I started to uncontrollably cry as I tried to reorient myself. I saw a dim light below me and suddenly I was in an insurmountable amount of pain. I had fallen into a sink! Where was I and why am I here? A squirrel was next to me booking soup, he was very cute. "Well, that was a rude entrance. How may I help you mortal?" The cute squirrel stood, cutting his veggies and chicken with much speed and strength. Every muscle in his body showed and bulged as blood went through his body. It drew my attention away from everything else but the question, "I-I don't know. I suddenly appeared here! I was exploring a cave near my cabin and then I got transported into an abyss, and then I was here!" He made an odd noise and then looked at me, taking me seriously," Fell through the fabric of reality? I suppose someone should fix that." He spoke as if he had encountered this before, which was interesting to me. He then pulled up a giant skeleton and began to break it into small pieces. It appeared he was planning to eat a skeleton with his soup! I wanted to say something, though he stopped me," I suppose since this is a first I must ask you a question. "What is it you want more than anything else in the world?" He stopped his soup-making and sat down in a nearby chair made of hay. "I suppose I'd wish to help others with their mental problems. I went through so much in my life and I'd never wish it upon anyone," Is all I answered. He smiled and booped me. This made me sneeze and then he spoke," It's always the cute ones that endure the most pain. I'm sorry to hear this, though if you truly wish to help others you must endure a bit more pain. You will have to prove yourself for this power you seek, will you do it?" I nodded and he took me to his backyard. The tree had shaped its roots into a course for me to physically get through! He stood on a post nearby and gestured for me to get started. I nodded and began. The first obstacle was simple, get through a hole smaller than your natural width. I squeezed myself as far in as I could, then took in a deep breath and exhaled. I quickly pushed myself through it and screamed in pain as all of my right ribs had broken. I fell to the ground, in so much pain I nearly passed out. "Are you okay? I can help you come out of there but it will mean forfeiting your chances at Godhood," He yelled from afar, though I could hear understanding in his voice. He wanted to help, though he couldn't. I stood up and gave him a thumbs up, signalling I'm fine. I smiled through the pain and went on. I needed to climb a wall with barely any grip that was the size of an average house wall. I backed up and jumped as high as I could, seeing if I could jump up to its top. I could reach its halfway point and so I calculated it and ran to the wall, jumped, then gripped with one paw a brick sticking out of the wall. I smiled and sighed, then got ready to do a jump, except using my arms. I loosened up my arms and put my legs against the wall. I was going to pull myself up to get enough air for my hindpaws to jump on. I pulled up, jumped off the brick with my right hindpaw, then grabbed the top and pulled myself over. I let myself fall and stood back up quickly, recovering somehow extremely quickly. I felt my ribs, but they somehow healed. Did I finish my goal? So easily? I was injured and went through pain, but that were only two challenges," D-did I do it?" He simply nodded and spoke two simple sentences," The tree might've pitied you, or sensed it useless to test one whose life had been painful. Focus on me and think of being right next to me." I looked at him, blurred his surroundings, and then visualised myself next to him. I was suddenly right there! Next to him! Though I was about to fall down he caught me right before I did and then hugged me," Are you okay? Did you get hurt?" He was so worried about me! It was so cute! How did someone so powerful and clearly important care for me? "I-I suppose I am okay now. T-thank you for catching me," I whispered unintentionally, blushing and staring into his eyes. "Would you like to share your story over a bowl of soup? The bone dissolves in this soup and enhances the chicken's flavour. I mean, I'd also love to learn more about you. Someone as cute and special as you deserve to be heard," He whispered back right into my ear, and this made me blush so much redder. He noticed this and kissed my cheek, and then suddenly we were at his table. I was across from him, we had soup and it smelled amazing! I didn't question his powers and smiled as I simply began to lap up a small bit of the soup. We had paws, not fingers, so we simply ate it as other quadrupeds did. I shared my story and he shared his. We fascinated each other with how different our upbringings were," You're such an interesting squirrel!" He looked away to hide his blush, though it failed. I pushed myself out of my shell a little, though not much. It made me happy. "Oh shush you! You're much cuter!" We smiled and laughed at our playful bickering. I teleported myself next to him and nuzzled his muzzle, sharing my love. He simply had to nuzzle back to tell me what I hope. He looked at me with caring eyes and nuzzled back," I won't ever hurt you, I promise. Do you wish to be partners?" He beat me to it! I simply giggled though and nodded. We shared a small smooch, nuzzling and playful nipping at each other's ears. We went back to my woods and I introduced him to my parents. They got very confused and sceptical, though I showed them my new abilities and he showed his. They were very surprised and gave us warnings, then asked to speak with him in private. When he came out he was blushing brightly and he walked up to me with a bag. He open it up and inside were condoms! They gave him about 30 condoms! Oh my god! My anxiety still skyrockets when we talk of this! I looked at them, hugged him, and mouthed "You jerks, I love you!" We then teleported back to his home. When we did this a strange being was already there. He told me to stay here and they spoke. She left and explained who they were and what they did. He took me to their village and introduced me, and then we left and cuddled for the entire rest of the day. This boy brings me so much joy! I love this boy! I gave myself the title (which was approved by Hecate) of the God of Fear. I advise Hecate (when requested) about mortal fears and concerns. What will her actions/inactions do to the mortals' minds? Will they fear? Will they be sad? I cover the negative emotional spectrum. We've yet to find a mortal who can cover the positive side of the spectrum. That is my story, I hope you enjoyed it!